English translation by
Nadesan
Satyendra
"I desire that I write for myself alone.
It is when that which is buried in me finds expression in words,
that I myself come to truly know what was buried in me. It may
well be that the reason that I write is because I feel that I
may discover more and more and come to know what else may be
inside me. As I continue to write, and as more and more
experiences unfold from within me, and as I become subject to
these experiences, it seems to me that I may, in a way, make it
possible for me to know who I am.
There are those who find that the words that I
write to understand about myself, also help them to understand
themselves. They are my readers. When they hear that the key
that I fashioned for my lock, may also open their locks, they
come in search of my house. When they come, it appears to me
that it is entirely appropriate that I should share my
understanding...
So that a writer may protect this nature, this
way of life, I value freedom of expression as the most
important freedom. I cannot say that at the present time I
have sufficient courage or awareness of
truth to practice that which I have so easily described.
These are qualities that I will need to develop. I believe that
it will be possible for me to do so..."
