English translation by
Nadesan Satyendra
"I desire that I write for myself alone. It is when
that which is buried in me finds expression in words, that I myself come
to truly know what was buried in me. It may well be that the reason that I
write is because I feel that I may discover more and more and come to know what else may
be inside me. As I continue to write, and as more and more experiences
unfold from within me, and as I become subject to these experiences, it
seems to me that I may, in a way, make it possible for me to know who I
am.
There are those who find that the words that I write to
understand about myself, also help them to understand themselves. They are my
readers. When they hear that the key that I fashioned for my lock, may
also open their locks, they come in search of my house. When they come, it
appears to me that it is entirely appropriate that I should share my
understanding...
So that a writer may protect this nature, this way
of life, I value freedom of expression as the most important
freedom. I cannot say that at the present time I have sufficient courage
or awareness of truth to practice that which I have so easily
described. These are qualities that I will need to develop. I believe that it will
be possible for me to do so..."
